currently listening to: i bleed -pixies
currently reading: smiles to go -jerry spinelli
"i'm dreaming. i'm standing behind him. i know there's a smile on his face but i can't see it. i want to tell him to turn around. i keep trying but i can't speak. i can feel my throat getting sore. and now something is coming out of my mouth, but it isn't words. it's tiny flashes. a glittery stream of them. protons leaving me flying and dying into his black hair."