Saturday, April 21, 2012


current mood:
currently listening to: pactum expressum #666
currently watching: 17 again

my plan for the rest of the evening is to write the six page essay for my sociology class that is due mondayyyyyy. i wait until the the last minute to write these things on purpose, i just don't quite know what that purpose yet is. maybe just the drive & fever that writing these things evoke within me? i just know i get this weird feel, like i'm on fire with an internal drive to smite everything around me with my mouth words. once i get started i really love the feeling, but before then, it just kind of gets on my nerves & stresses me out to think about it. most of the time it pays off & serves me well, so i guess i won't cry about it.

i was able to get a response from an atrium member regarding my other paper, & the board gave me some really valuable input & want me to revise & re-submit with their suggestions considered. they said that the paper was of great interest to them, & has a good chance of being accepted. they also want to know whether i should initially pitch the proposal to the soc, psych, or communication department, which i am still in debate over. my heart says psychology, but my grey matter is saying communication. i dunno man. i just wanna be the next carl jung, okay????????

speaking of, i watched 'a dangerous method' a few weeks back & it was one of the better movies i've seen in awhile. i was in love with keira knightley's performance. i found so much of myself in what she was projecting. it was so beautiful & liberating to connect myself in that way to her character. michael fassbender & viggo mortensen were great as carl jung & freud. freud was made to look like the "bad guy", which i personally don't know enough to see the situation in that light, even tho i have a tendency to stray from those kinds of perceptions in the first place.

snookms & i have turned over a new leaf in our relationship that has improved our relationship immensely. & i know we have our ups & downs, but i sincerely felt like our relationship couldn't get any better than it already was. i'm so happy that we're best friends. navigating these uncharted territories in life together with this dude is exactly what my little girl heart had in mind when i was dreaming of a life partner that would get my wants & needs the way he does. we'll be married 16 years this coming friday. i'm excited that he's taking the day off. so far we have plans to go to the shooting range, & then see 'cabin in the woods' afterwards. i'm curious as to why everyone is saying it's so great of a movie.

oh yeahhhhh. the internet has been really fucking boring lately. save a few tumblrs & one specific lj, i have more positive associations logging onto my college campus website than i do anywhere else. i've gotten excited about catching up on google reader tho, especially since snookms & i were able to watch 'the legend of korra' episode this afternoon. i'm all about amon & his chi-blocking shit, even tho i am team tenzin all the way. i was like, HOLY EFFBALLS these em-effers are really gonna do this??? & then i also have questions for tenzin cause i know he know SUMTPIN. i just know it. but yeah. tenzin is sexy. it's like, he's this strict, but not unrelenting teacher. he's willing to let the pieces fall where they may, instead of the whole "my way or the highway" kind of jazz. i seriously did this little happy clap & bounced up & down on the couch with a little girl giggle when he acknowledged that he knew about korra going to the games & that she figured out how to "be the leaf" at the end of the second episode. even tho he didn't approve of her doing that stuff at first, he saw that it was good for her to learn in this way so he showed his happiness for her, instead of being a silent & grudging jerkface about it. WORKS FOR ME.

also, he reminds me of snookms. bad & hard.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

my name is a killing word

current mood:
currently listening to: blood -the middle east
currently reading: women writing the weird

ahhhhhhhh, it's so nice to put my feet up & rest. i've been on the go all day, but i'm feeling a good kind of tired. i love this kind!

went to my interpersonal communication class & the professor covered the last chapter in our book today. the next four weeks of class will be presentations & finals. i'm going to miss this teacher so much. i hope we can continue to stay in contact with each other somehow.

got home, said hello to a bright-eyed & bushy tailed snookms, straightened up the house a bit & greeted all my spawn with a good afternoon. they're all on spring break & are getting to sleep in late. it makes me happy to see them get extra rest. i got really restless so i dug the lawn mower out of the garage & proceeded to cut the grass in my snow boots. i decided to wear them this morning to class even though the weather is totally clashing with that decision, but i was too lazy to dig for normal shoes in my closet. my feet were so sweaty when i was done that i could barely walk. i couldn't help but wonder if that's what it feels like when you get stuck in quicksand. (me & my weird childhood self musings). kind of sucked though because the lawn mower kept dying while i was pushing it along & finally it just gave up altogether. snookms came out an hour before he had to go to work & managed to take the whole dang thing apart, fix it & finish mowing the front yard. that dude is a fucking machine, i'm telling you.

after snookms left for work i swept the sidewalk, the driveway & the neighbor's driveway cause our grass blew all the heck over the place. i was sweating so bad that i came right in & took a shower. i love the feeling of walking outside to enjoy the fruits of my labor after a fresh shower. i saw shespawn riding her bike up & down the street & it looked so fun so i threw on my hello kitty pajama boots & a hoodie & we went for a nice bike ride together. afterwards she wanted to go to the park, so i rounded all my teenager nuggets n friends up in the van & headed for the park. it was really boring so we left after 20 minutes & hung out at my mom's for an hour. she took me on her annual gardening tour to show me all the new pretty things that are growing in the yard. her & my dad have transformed their yard into a magical wonderland. i love all the pathways they paved with bricks & rocks & clematis & tulip trails & all this other crazy bleeding heart lushness. my mom really knows her way around a greenhouse!

after we left my mom & dad's house, we headed back home, just to turn around & have to leave again to take fezziwig to his bff's new house. SO TIRED AT THIS POINT.

come home, make spaghetti & hamburgers for dinner, have a nice dinner convo with shespawn & her bff about family grudges. now here i am, dazed & confused & delirious from lack of sleep. heck, i had to break in the middle of this entry just to stop & pick up fezziwig from his friend's house. it's kind of fun to drive late at night with a van full of teenagers on a pretty night like this though, so i'm not complaining. plus snookms is due home from work any minute & i've been missing his face all day. i can't wait to snuggle up to his neck & smell his special snookms' scent (tm!).

ohhhhh yeah. i got an email from one of the members of The Atrium & they said they were excited to read my submission & would get back to me within the next few months. my dad asks me everyday if i've heard anything back from anyone, which is kind of flattering to me that he cares that much. like i said, even if my paper isn't accepted for publication, just all of the things that have taken place in the meantime as a result has been really uplifting.

i think i might go play some guitar before i fall over from sleep deprivationnnnnnnnn. goodnite <3