shake dre4ms from your hair my pretty child, my sweet one

current mood: theseKritdiaryoFlauraPalmeR
currently listening to: magic spells -crystal castles
currently watching: advent children



i just woke up from a nap & i'm feeling under the influence with grog.

my friday has begun & i'm so relieved & happy. the kids were all consecutively sick during christmas & that shit is more depressing than Elliot having to part from E.T.

already talked it over with snookms today after i got off work & we're all gonna see paranormal activity 2 at movies8 in greenwood tomorrow/tomarrow before the new year's eve festivities. SOEXCITED. even tho i seen it already with muh redhead & 20 other of her worshippers, i am still jazzed to see it with snookms & my kiddoes. i think they'll appreciate the spook factor.

snookms sister (aka big boss matsumoto) & snookms aunt (aka my co-worker) & i were gathered round the subwayeatfresh table today at lunch exchanging haunted house stories. i hafta say that snookms & his sister & mom take the cake when it comes to them. i guess they even had an exorcism performed in one of their houses when they lived on the east side of indy because it got so bad. it's to the point where snookms sister is the only one willing to talk about it these days. i am telling you all right now, demonology & paranormal activity is one of my isolated interests. do NOT get me started on that shit or i will never & i mean NEVER shut the fuck up. that, & anything psychology related. ESPECIALLY autism.

also, do not bring up symphony of the night, ff7, ff10, sandman series, the smell of snookms flesh, fell beasts, or obsessive compulsive disorder. prolly not a good idea to bring up all things laura palmer related either. you best QUIT.

okay. so, insofaras loot be goin, yeah. snookms got me stuff, even tho we said we weren't gonna do that. he got me that wikked awesome nightmare before xmas purse that i put a picture up of on twitter, & the best of u2 cd, & a very trench coat-ished looking black coat. i got him a replacement wedding ring made of titanium, & some colour-coded clippers that i've already de-virginized in order to touch up my shave.



the spawn made out like motherfucking bandits. jr. got an ipod touch, a fuckton of horror movie paraphenalia (mostly movies & shirts of the friday the 13th & halloween essence) & a beanbag chair & his very own ninja star & combat knife. fezziwig got halo reach legendary edition, call of duty black ops, two miniature sized combat knives that are the size of my pinky but made exactly like a full scale model, 2 pairs of pants-on-tha-ground pants cuz he's like his momma used to be, a webcam w a mic, & some module thing that transfers xbox360 memory from one console to another. shespawn got silent hill 1, silent hill origins, shattered memories, midnight pomegranate body spray & body butter, a gray hoodie that i am coveting thee fuck out of because it has silver bedazzled bradz all over it, pre-poked thumb holes in the bottom of the sleeves & an ear bud system sewn inside. she also got a bunch of xmas scented hand sanitizer from bath & body works, including vampire blood scented which i heart. snookms picked out an 'how to draw manga' book for her along with a really keen looking drawing journal that has a hard cover silver embellishing on the front. it seems like there is other stuff i am forgetting, but yeah, that is just what they got from us parental units.

other gifts from fellow family members:

• under the dome by stephen king
• ramona & beezus the movie
• a 'jesse' themed (toy story 2 & 3) candy cane from my mom which has so much meaning it makes my heart fucking hurt with unexplainable delight every time i peek at it in my purse
• a loaf of kick ass homemade cranberry-pumpkin bread that snookms sister baked
• a bunch o' culinary ware from snookms mom & stepdad

we also went to see the new tron @ metropolis on xmas day. it was definately an xmas worthy movie, like, one you'd hope to see on xmas day. the daft punk music was a perfect fit for the movie & jeff bridges still manages to get my panties in a bunch even if he is gray & takin one for team zen.

am making slow progress on the wasteland, but still enjoying thoroughly. i have a thing for beetle already & i barely know the fellow. & of course gillick. because why? because he's a hit with the ladies, alright? & the fact that he's a hit with beetle gets me all giggly as well. you'll all hear about it soon enuff.

other than all of this it's just been work, take care of sick babies, deal with college paperworks & assistance program appts & the likes. it's like being pulled through a knot having to deal with it all, but i just push it to the very furthest recesses of my being & let it be dealt with when the time comes for it to be dealt with. it also gets lonely as fuck with snookms working nights, but i am a resourceful girl & now know how to use my time (mostly!) wisely. after tomorrow/tomarrow it will be 10 more days till college. i'll be able to put that statement about myself to the true test!

10 things i hate about everybody

current mood: watchtower gothic
currently listening to: boy's life, two-wheeled train
currently reading: The Wasteland



i think i may keep on with this intro to each blog entry. i really like being able to show off not only what i feel, but what i'm listening to, what i'm reading at the time & what colour my underwear is if i'm feeling manic enough.

also. I'M TIRED OF CAPITALIZATION. mostly i blame tumblr for this, but yeah. i capitalize when i want to. so there.

i think mostly what it comes down to is that rules hold me back from so much. unwritten law, written law. all that. i'm not saying it's bad or good. i'm just saying it holds me back. from a lot. whether that is a good thing or a bad thing can only be deemed by the one having to deal with my lack of propriety.

i am hating things today. needing my terrible weapons for things unseen. i woke up with the prospect of a small ball of malice & it steadily snowballed into a great Balrog of unurthly hatred towards all living, breathing things. i think i'm over it for the most part, but oh man! there are those days where it's like a fucking plague & it washes over the whole household till there is nothing left for me to do except mutilate some inanimate object. i didn't do that today tho, some i'm glad about that. it came out in the form of a stupid ass migraine instead.

i am completely in love with united states of tara. went over to my mom & dad's last night & finished watching the last 6 episodes & that show just fucking blows me away with it's accuracy in regard to multiples. or like, d.i.d., whatever it's called. dissassociative identity disorder? i am just kind of floored in how much my own therapist applied this disorder's call for healing to my own personal journey & every word i am just hanging on to for dear life because i can relate so terribly much. i almost started crying (well, i DID cry, i just didn't let them see me break) when the little girl alter came out of tara for the first time. her name is chicken & my heart seriously went POW. i tried to act all unnaffected by the moment but inside i was seriously dying. but it feels so good to know you're not alone sometimes. so good that i hurts i guess? whatever. i can't make any sense today.

also, i got my textbooks for college. getting excited, as it's only a few weeks away. one day i will blow shit up with my mind.

what else, what else! uhmmmm, snookms & i have got most of our christmas shopping done. we made a deal with each other not to buy stuff for each other this year so we wouldn't go broke & so the kids could have a decent christmas. i just told him if we could make sure we have enough billz to see a movie on christmas day & get our msg on @ china buffet then i'd be a happy camper. hell, i'd be a happy camper even if those things didn't take place.

right now i'm watching rob dyrdek's fantasy factory & kind of drooling over drama & how fine he is. i'm not for sure if it was him, but when snookms & i went to watch the UFC fights at bw3's the other week they were making a big deal because one of rob dyrdek's cousins was there watching the fight live. & the dood looked like drama except his hair was longer. but what, hair can't grow? so yeah, i was all ooh-in & ahh-in over him & whatnot. like i am now. he's cute. i like his accent & how he doesn't lose his cool no matter how hard rob tries to make him look like a fool. reminds me a lot of snookms & his cool factor.

i can't believe dexter went by so quick, & i'm even more bummed that him & jennifer carpenter are getting the D-word. i thought they made a really great couple. & of course the fact that they play brother & sister on the show makes it even more, i dunno... shall i say "endearing"? is that the word i'm looking for? but yeah. it's whatever. fine, get a divorce. i don't give a fuck hollywood.

shespawn is back on the silent hill kick, she made me & snookms a really adorable homemade ornament that was silent hill themed when she was in art class & then friday we ventured out to joann fabrics to buy felt & make pyramid head dolls. we had a lot of fun. snookms & i bought her all the remaining games she doesn't own from the series for xmas, so she'll be set for quite some time. akira yamaoka has been on my mind as a result these days, particularly the stray child track. i think i will go crank that while i finish tidying up the house & then maybe eat something with cheese & monster energy. CAN U HANDEL THAT?

The Scenario....

Waiting on Snookms to wake up & get ready; we're finally getting around to our Christmas shopping! & the difficult task ahead of me here is to NOT jump on our shared sleeping quarters & smother him to death with my Sugarplump death grip. What? That's his pet name for me. It's s'posed to be Sugarplum, but he added a 'p' at the end to be intentionally adorable & it just stuck like that. I heart it a whole lot to be honest.

So right now I'm watching Terminator 3: Rise of the Machines on FX (well it's playing as white noize anyhow) & I'm cranking out my blip jams. I really find Blip quite useful. It's one of my most used "social networks". I'm sure all y'all are sick of it too that deal with me on Twitter & Facebook. Sowwy.

It started snowing on Friday evening I think? I dunno, could be wrong. I just know I woke up Saturday & there was glorious fucking snow everywhere. Maybe it was Friday? Either way it was great. Oh, that's right! December 1st! Shit, that's a Wednesday, BOY AM I OFF. I remember now because the spawn & I were making observations about how fitting it was that the snow finally came to grace us with it's presence on the first of December. It's only an inch or 3 but hey! I don't care, I love the snow. Shespawn & Fezziwig share the same affinity for winter & it's culture as I, but to Tha Jr. it's like motherfucking Kryptonite. It weakens his tolerance for bullshit & makes him want to curl up into a ball & cry about life. I think a big thing of it is the whole 'change' deal with Autism, & how hard it is to adapt. & then of course how ridiculously cold it gets. He can't freely go running outside everytime he needs to take a power walk without freezing his testicles off. So I understand & try not to deem him a party pooper for hating on the snow. On Sunday I made pototo(e) soup when I woke up so it would be ready for Snookms when the Colts played & it was perfect timing when it did get done because I was able to surprise shespawn with a snowball attack outside. We had fun chasing each other around the desolate snowland outside; we even took a stroll around the block & kicked a frozen snowball all the way back to the house. She saved it & put it in the freezer, we promised we'd pretend it was a piece of wedding cake & come back to it in 50 years so we could eat it. Lucky I had my fingers crossed when I made that promise. After she stored her memorabilia we unsheathed our Christmas Story gear & ate the heck outta some potato(e) soup & I made hot chocolate with marshmallows & whipped cream.

Made it out to my mom & dad's later that night & was in for a sinigang treat! Their house smelled of lemon, fresh garlic & mustard green heaven & I was telling my mom I wish I could twitter the heavenly scent to all mah peeps so they could grasp the understanding of my joy. You put this stuff over rice & you are set for the night son! After we ate Dexter came on & each episode gets consecutively better then the previous. I love love LOVE me some cuddly Dexter. Since I've been sprung into the series I haven't had the opportunity to see Dexter really display any affection, so seeing him do so with you-know-whoooooo was uber fucking delight for me. I wanted to squeeze right in between & pet them both. Deb tho? She's gotta be my favourite. She's the best. She's such a bitch, but she's so straightforward & says exactly what needs to be said, regardless of whether people are gonn' be hatin or not, y'know?

So like, Tumblr's been down since last night. I been kinda bummed about that, but it's not too bad. I get more done on my days off when I'm not glued to rb'in stuffs. I still say velveteenrabbit is my absolute favourite there. One minute she's reblogging Public Enemy shit & then she'll be bustin out the James Jean & Trevor Brown. I'm all like, "ooh grrl, get outta my fucked up head! Please!" But she won't. I got to hear her voice on this one place she posts groovy mixes & whatnot. So pretty. She also recorded her doing the Scenario rap on her phone for me & reblogged it on Tumblr just for shits & giggles & it was pretty fantastic. So yeah. She's super awesome.

Okay so now Snookms is totally reading to brave the Christmas madness with me so I'm out y'all!